My Summer Goals

Although Summer started a few weeks ago I still wanted to share my top 5 goals for this summer. It started out as a much much much longer list, but due to some mental illness difficulties I have to cut it down. So since I’m looking at it I wanted to share it with all of you.

I want to see the stars

I’ve lived in the suburbs all of my life, and although I really do like living where I do I don’t get to see the stars… at all. Honestly I’ve never been in a situation where I can really see the stars without excess light or trees not covering them up. It wasn’t until a few months ago where my friend (now boyfriend) was waiting for me outside his apartment building that I really decided I did want to see the stars. He was telling me how he missed the stars, and what he missed about where he grew up. He was telling me about the stars, and now I really want to see the stars like he used to.

I want to improve my health

My physical and mental health have both taken a toll lately, and I want to do better with that this summer. I’m making plans right now but starting soon I’m really going to be hitting it hard with exercising, eating healthy, and working on my mental health. None of this will be easy and really I’m in it for the long haul, but you have to start somewhere and I don’t want to go down any farther so I wanna try going up.

Take More Photos

If you haven’t been following my Instagram for a while you might not know that the amount of pictures that I take and post has gone down. I want to do more of this because photography is something that I truly love to do. So I want to take and post more pictures as a way to document my days, interact with the world outside my house, and express myself more creatively. (If you have any photo ideas let me know!)

Read and Write More

The worst thing about college for me was that I wasn’t reading or writing for personal pleasure. So since graduating I’ve read two books and I want to start writing again. Although I didn’t do this a ton in high school, and these have both been things that I do when I have little to do I want these to be things that I do more often. I really do enjoy doing these, so I want to get back into it.

Smile More

This one is sort of my catch all. I want to do more things that make myself and others smile. Things that help others to enjoy their lives and just spread a little more joy in the world.

For the rest of the summer I will be vlogging some/most of these adventures, so remember to follow my blog and check up on my social media pages (@happysmiles159) for updates and stories!

What are your goals this summer?

See you soon,

~Amanda

My Command Center: July 2017

Recently I’ve been so excited about these new projects called “Command Centers” that are popping up all over Pintrest, and all over my creative feeds. So like a lot of people I created a Pintrest board, and started to collect ideas. It wasn’t until one morning after my bedroom was painted that I decided I could use a version of this myself, but not exactly how all of these are used.

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I had an extra corkboard laying around so I pulled that out to start with and then started to look at what I wanted to keep track of and what I wanted to see everyday. I came up with these things:

A Monthly Overview

IMG_0341.JPGI really wanted to see my month at a glance so that I knew when and where I was traveling, when I wanted projects done, birthdays coming up, and so on. I use this a lot because I talk on my phone in my room so that’s always where I am when I’m trying to make plans so this is really helpful for me. I also keep next month’s calendar up so that I an sort of plan ahead. I don’t plan much more than a month in advance so I only keep the next month posted.

A Weekly Calendar

When I first put up my Command Center I wanted a weekly calendar up so that I could see my To Do list and my plans for the week. I really wanted to see what was in my planner on my wall, so I actually found these printables on the Scattered Squirrel Blog, and I tried a few out to find the best one for me.

IMG_0338A Fitness Section

I’ve been on a health kick – sort of – thing recently and I really wanted a place to track what my workouts were, how often I did them, my measurements, and my goals. Seeing them every day when I wake up reminds me what I want to do, where I want to be, and how to do it so it’s more likely that I’ll do it. I found this printable kit on fitlifecreative.com and I’ve found that I absolutely love it. It’s easy to fill out, keep up with, and read on a daily basis so that I’m much more likely to do what I’ve written down.

 

IMG_0342So after printing everything out an organizing it on the board I ended up really happy with it, but I found that over time it sort of changed. The first week I didn’t update my weekly page, and I found that working out of a bullet journal was easier for me and more effective. So, that was taken down. I also took down the current weight because it fluctuates a pound almost every day and it was just too annoying to keep up.

In the future I plan on putting up the latest Blogilates Calander. I plan on using Blogilates as my main workout program because when I was working out two-ish years ago it was my absolute favorite thing to do and I had so much fun with it. I also want to put up positive notes from friends, and a depression tracker that I found on the blog Writes Like A Girl. I want to get a better grip on my depression and anxiety, and I want to see that more on my Command Center.

This Command Center will change when I move out, and might even change more before I move, so look out for more updates and changes!

What would you put in your command center? Tell me in the comments below!

See you soon,

Amanda

Clean and Clear Deep Action Exfoliating Scrub Review

After taking two weeks and really not taking care of my skin, like at all, during a stressful time where I really should have been taking care of my skin I can say that my skin isn’t in the best condition right now. That’s sort of what lead me to buying a Deep Action exfoliating Scrub by Clean and Clear from Walmart the other day.

So why not review this new product that I’m just starting to use in hopes that it’ll save my skin before Friday? (Spoiler: I was lazy and there was no way this breakout is clearing up before Friday)

So the scrub comes in a really simple squeeze bottle that is opaque at the top and fades to a transparent material at the bottom. It also has a gradient from a dark blue to a teal, and  it looks nice sitting in the bathroom next to the night time face wash.

I’ve been using this once every other day to try to really get some of the gross stuff off my skin quicker, and it really did. It got a lot of the dead skin off of my face and my foundation went on so much better after. It also felt oddly nice for the “beads” to sort of really scrub. I did scrub a little too hard for like a minute where it wasn’t that comfortable, but other than that it felt really nice to use and left my skin feeling so nice after.

Overall I am going to continue this product, and you’ll see it in next week’s post My Makeup and Skin Routine Summer 2017, which will be up on Monday.

What’s your favorite part of your skin care routine? Let me know in the comments below!

See you soon,

~Amanda

Three Things I’ve Learned About Moving Back Home After College

About a week ago I managed to graduate college, and although many people think that means moving on to greater and better things, that’s pry far from the truth.

I’m proud of myself and my accomplishments, don’t get me wrong, but I’ve found myself plopped back right where I was four years ago with only a few changes. I had to move back into my mom’s house, I’m looking for a job, I have no income, and I sit home all day getting bored even though I have a long long long list of things to do. Although I’m looking for jobs and apartments and I actually have a chance to relax I’m really restless and I find myself wondering if I’ll ever get out of this house. After four years, a few thousand dollars, endless amounts of coffee, a few all nighters, and too many moments where I wondered what I was doing with my life I’m back in the same place with the same people, wondering what I’m doing with my life.

So in the last week of living with my mother, brother, and two pets in my childhood home here are some things that I’ve learned.

The first thing that I learned very quickly is that I needed to downsize and get rid of a lot of stuff. Although I hauled about eight bags to donations before I moved there is still more stuff here that I need to get rid of. I also have found that I need to go through my room, since it’s been left untouched for almost three years and really could use a good cleaning.

Although there are a lot of memories in that room that I don’t want to lose, I need to go through and make sure that what I’m keeping are actual memories that mean something and not just things that I don’t want to let go. One of these things is a hat that I got in high school from a party. I don’t think I have ever actually worn the thing, but I keep it because it’s cute and reminds me of that time in my life. I’m honestly pry going to get rid of it, because I have pictures and scrapbooks from that time to help me remember and I’m still friends with those people so old stories come up often.

The second thing that I learned is that communication is key, and designating a spot for yourself to go to get out of an argument/situation or to just get away from everyone is a must. For me that’s just going outside on our deck or front step. My mom is able to see me in both of those places, but she sees me writing, talking on the phone, or reading. This means that she sees that I’m busy/preoccupied so she won’t come bother me unless it’s necessary, which means that I get some time alone to breath and just think when the house gets noisy or chaotic.

Just to clarify this isn’t a knock against anyone that I live with. I’m an introvert, which for me can mean that being with people all of the time can drive me up a wall if we can’t just sit and be quiet. My mom is sort of the opposite, she loves to talk with my brother and I when we’re around which isn’t a bad thing by any means. For me, though, since I don’t feel like I can politely tell my mom to please be quiet and just let me be it means that I have to choose to remove myself from that room. Once again this isn’t anything against my mom or saying that she’s wrong or something, it just means that we’re different people and that’s OK.

The last thing that I’ve learned is that you don’t have to like your family, but you have to love them.

This isn’t anything new, this phrase actually came up a lot of me in high school but is really relevant in my life now. I don’t have to like anyone in my family, and with the amount of times I’ve wanted to hurt my brother or kick him out this week will attest to that. At the end of the day I still love him and I’m happy to hear when his car pulls up and he’s home safe. You can have as many arguments, as many fights, or as many screaming sessions as you want but you still have to love each other.

I know that this is hard, but when you live anywhere with three people you WILL NOT agree on everything, and especially when it’s with your family you have to fix the issue. When you live with family you have to love them because most of the time they aren’t going anywhere and you still have to live with the.

The last week has been hard, and has been one hell of an adjustment, but with some really good communication and a little bit of help from everyone involved I know that this will all work out and be fine.

I’ve learned a lot more in the last week than is in this post, so watch out for more on this topic in the future. (And if you’re moving in with your family again leave a question down below and it might turn into a post.)

I’ll see you soon,

~Amanda

Worklog: My First Doll Custom May 2017

At the beginning of the year I found Dollightful on Youtube. She makes videos about customizing dolls, and I thought that it was really cool so I decided to buy a doll and try it.

Before I started I watched a lot of videos from Dollightful as well as HeXtianMozekyto, and MariaLazar to sort of try to figure out what I was doing. They had a lot of good examples and I was able to figure out the general idea of what I needed to do when I attempted this project.

I decided to try this project with this Apple White Doll from ever after high. I got it used off of Ebay with the Raven Queen Doll because they were just sort of what I found and I didn’t want to pay full price for a doll that may end up in the trash or ruined at the end of all of this.

img_6927The first step I took was to remove her head from the body, cut off a food chunk of her hair, and take her face off . Once that was all done I was left with this.

The next thing I did was I took out the rest of her hair. This was so much harder than I thought that it would be, and took me a lot longer. As I figured out that I didn’t really know what I was doing I watched some youtube videos and actually ended up taking a flat head screw driver to try to loosen the glue and hair plugs so that they were easier to get out. This did speed up the process, but I’m not sure if it hurts the plastic at all or what.

image1 (1)For putting the hair back into her head it wasn’t as hard as I thought it would be, honestly. The hardest part was keeping all of the hair organized, and to be honest I don’t have a clue of how to do it well. I’m still working on it. I did end up not having enough hair, but I honestly think that if you actually figure it out a 2oz hank will do you just fine.

I decided to reroot the hair because making a wig just scared me too much for my first custom attempt.

So that’s where this project is at the moment. I’m waiting on more hair to arrive in the mail so I can continue, but it shouldn’t take too long so check back for updates later.

See you soon,

~Amanda

I Am Not Healthy… But I Wanna Be

I think I am going to get so much hate on this post, but please bear with me and do your best to be nice. I honestly don’t think that I’m healthy. I am 5’4″, 127.8 Ibs, I eat my veggies, and I love fruits. This all sort of adds up to a healthy person, but I’m still not really healthy at all. I can’t do a sit up, or a push up, I can’t run or lift much, and I never feel like I have enough energy for ANYTHING.

My level of fitness fits my lifestyle because I’m able to do EVERYTHING that I need to in my daily life. All of my tasks can be accomplished easily and I am able to walk for as long as I need to. So I’m able to get away with not being really healthy.

What sparked this was a doctor’s appointment that I scheduled (and then canceled). The person I was talking to asked me to rank my overall health, and I said a 2 because I don’t think that I’m healthy. She didn’t ask for an explanation but I talked to a few of my friends after that and I got their definitions of healthy, and I just sort of decided I’m not healthy. The days after I realized how I constantly was feeling sick, exhausted, or just mentally horrible and that kind of made me wake up and sort of got me to change some goals.

So now I’m done complaining, I’m going to fix it. Starting today I’m working to eat healthier, workout when I can, and just try to do better.

That’s kind of all I have for this. See you all on Wednesday.

See you soon,

~Amanda